Thank YOU soooo much for your note and Thanksgiving wish!

  Your writing is sooooo beautiful as always...From my experience with you, I look into you through your writing and see/feel kindness, non-judgement, creativity, and ALOT of Talent!

  Keep writing and I'll keep reading! 

   I can see you being published someday if you're not already..Do you have interest in that?

  Have a Blessed day!,

        Jewel

that's why i'm afraid to get close to people anymore. because i'm afraid that once they get to know the real me, they'll leave me. but i still take my chances with people.

love.venus

Our first official weigh-in is on Monday.  Please weigh-in on the "WEIGH IN HERE" entry.  Further information in the latest updates.  Thanks!  <3 L2G

Ana Bootcamp in the Lose2Gain diary.  Looking for new members!

Weekly weigh-ins, peer support, competition, tips and tricks.

I know the feeling....I can't feel or see my collar bones anymore. I hate being fat...how is school going? Are you still trying to have fun while you can?

I definetley know what you mean. I think that is the worst part of gaining weight, that and love handles *shudders*

Best of Wishes,

LibraVamp

BTW, I love the title, it is very interesting.

I feel ya... and working out seems to build more muscle, not burn the existing fat

  Your beautiful writing touches me and takes my breathe away...You truly have the Gift of capturing the moment and feelings and convey that to us...We are there with you!

     Wow! Thank You sooooooo much for your kind note to me....You paid my simple entry such a BIG compliment....

    No I don't teach Sunday school...do not have a church home where I can be loved and accepted- so far.

     I iwll not go anywhere that I will be judged and condemned..I know that I am a sinner..But I also know that I am a Beloved child of God!

    As are you!

    Have a Blessed Night!,

       Jewel

 PS Thank YOU for blessing mine!

  I must say again how much I love your entries and writing...You have a way of making me smile!

    I wish that I had the answer to your question...I do forgive people who aren't even sorry...I am able to do so because I know God has put up with alot of crap from me..and forgives me and loves me any way and He has asked me to do so.

  Praying that your weekend is FILLED with BLESSINGS!

   best wishes with the sugar thing!

  Looking forward to your next update!,

              Jewel

 Thank YOU sooooo much for your note of understanding, support, caring and encouragement...It was very kind of you and helped!

  I'm wondering how YOU are? I've missed your updates! Hope that you update soon!

  Have a Blessed day!,

        Jewel

YAY YAY YAY You for going to church! How was it? I hope the message was uplifting and inspiring! I hope that it was a good experience for you!

    Thank YOU for letting me know. Made me smile!

   Update soon!

  Have a Blessed day!,

         Jewel

Heart Hugs! This is very sad- But so beautifully written! You tokd some bad and created something beautiful.

    Heart Hugs again,

         Jewel

  Again I msut say what a talented writer you are...Your writing is truly amazing!

    You would be GREAT at writing a book or magazine articles...wonder if you have ever considered it?

     Heart Hugs for low self-esteem...I think we all have been through it..I know that I had a severe case of it due to the bipolar...I stopped and said a prayer for you..sometimes it is so hard to say no and to take a stand for ourselves!

   Have a Blessed day!

   With MUCH Gratitude for your note and support!,

                        Jewel

i know what u mean about the studying thing

i suck at it too
but huni you need to get back on track
as far as weightloss is concerned

stay strong (i know u can)

much love Amanda xxx

very cool huni

stay strong

much love Amanda xx

lol i'm glad your enjoying life

but what i don't understand is
how can you be happy you are getting fat?

stay strong
much love Amanda xxx

[childofthecherry]

wow dorm life
sounds great
i'm sorry to hear bout
the problems with your room mate tho
i hope you can work things out

stay strong
much love Amanda xxx

i envy you.

i'm only just starting out my junior year in high school, but it kinda sucks to know that i am doomed to be trapped with my nightmare family in my own house until i move out permanently. i am already certain that i want to go the U of Washington, which is a 10 minute car ride from my house, at most.

so even though i wanted to spend at least my freshman year in a co-ed dorm, i doubt i will get the chance.

but its nice you're having fun :]

[TheRealAlice]

good luck

making friends huni
stay strong
much love Amanda xxx

O.K. the whole not growing up thing never leaves you. You can be 40 something and still feel like you left highschool yesterday. I am 43 and my friends and I always talk about this nothing changes.

If you really want to lose wieght join a program like weight watchers or something there are fantastic programs out there and you won't feel starved.

EW, I hate ants. Did they bite you?

Aww i'm sorry
to hear bout your phone
and ur friend
but good luck with college

stay strong
much love Amanda xxx

aww huni
good luck with ur exam

stay strong
much love Amanda xxx

Your words are very thoughtful. I wish that I could feel joy. I wish that I could just decide to feel happy. But I can't. I'm not complaining. It's how things are with me and I don't think that it's gonna change anytime soon. It's kinda like trying to gain an inch in height. It's not possible. I don't have feelings, well, mostly. I will admit, on rare occaisions, I feel sad. I remember what it's like to have feelings. I used to be up and then down and then up and then down. While I don't long for those days, I'd rather be that way than the way that I am now.

Imagine seeing a future with no possibility of feeling joy or happiness; of not being able to laugh, no matter how funny something is. I find nothing funny. Nothing.

Oh well. It's just a fact of life. That's part of the reason why I can't lose weight, cuz I just don't have the motivation to do it. It just isn't that important to me, even though I know that I am ballooning more and more everyday.

 Thanks for you ear...

'HE IS SUCH AN a**h***!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!'

I believe you. They all are.

I hate it when you get to drunk to
socalise properly it can be embarassing too
lol don't ask

stay strong
much love Amanda xxx

why isnt the nanny and maid taking care of her?

did you tell someone about this?

I feel your pain.

Jovonnah

Wow...this is interesting. Low carb is where it's at baby...if we stick to it, the weight will peel off. Something about eggs and bacon. It just makes the weight come off. And if I'm skinnier I will be happier? Cool.  I'm gonna eat beef too and a little bit of chicken.

Fish is supposed to be really good to eat, but I don't really like it all that much. I betcha if I stuck to fish, the weight would come off too. Heck. Low carb it IS!

1.Tomorrow will not be different.

2.Drastic changes will not last, and have the potential to make things much worse.

Those statements are some of the most bullsh*t, pessimistic lines I have ever heard.  These may be your truth, but they are not Truth - do you know the difference?  How can you ever change if this is all you believe?  I will let you know that I have made DRASTIC changes in my life, and they have lasted.  Once you get the wheel turning in a new direction, it gains momentum. 

Anyway, I don't know how you perceive comments like this.... if you're offended or inspired or indifferent, so if you feel like it, I'd like to hear from you.  I am a recovering methamphetamine addict/bulimic/anorexic/self-mutilator. 

Hi
how are u?
At the end of the month I'm leaving MDD
so I wont have any Ana support or anything
I really can't afford to loose the support I have on here
so if you could please give me addresses (snail mail)
and cell/mobile numbers
please I wont be able to access the net at all
no thinspo, no pro ana nothing
just me
thats why Ineed you guys to repliy
please please repliy I cant afford to loose such great freinds
stay strong
much love Amanda xxx

believe me I know what you mean
about the period thing
mine are really bad too

tomorrow will be better
stay strong
much love Amanda xxx

OOh, I could never take diet pills cuz they always made me feel sick. I'll never take off this weight; not with the lifestyle that I live now.

I hate it when I bleed through my pants. I did that a couple of times in school. VERY embarrassing!

You're not weird, I feel like that all the time. Im going out today, i know Im going to get drunk, and I know someone will use me, and i'll let them. i hate it whilst its happening, but I still let people do it to me.

Dont feel like you should like it just because ur with him, if u're not comfortable sober, then he's not right for you, please dont go for looks over compatability.

xx

Omg, There are a few guys I would love to unf*ck!

Very good idea.

The un-f*cking idea is brilliant!!!

xxx

Good luck with the new guy

And hope the diet goes well xxxxxxxxx

OMFG!!!  your dads trying to kill you?

i'd totally runaway or get him arrested

congratulations on your weight loss huni

much love Amanda xxx

..it'sz nice to have your own thought.. but it isn't right to say something about "GUYS"..

..don't say something like that.. there's a plenty op "GUYS" here reading your very entry.. that's why i'm not wondering why did they have to be affected..!!

..hope you don't mind.. but i think, your just telling that 'cause he can't be yours..!! ^_^

..well gurl, if i where you.. i will do the same.. it's a great opportunity..!! right..!!?? you have nothing to do but to grab it and be wise..!!  ^_^

..i'm geneva anyway..!! [a simple filipina].. well, i guess it would be nice if you comment me back..!! keep'in'touch..!! muuaahh

"All Guys are Dogs" You mean we have sleek coats, are loyal, friendly, guard those we love and sometimes lick your face? Is that what you mean by dogs?

Spiritsfire

At least when you're ready you'll have plenty of prospects. *sigh* I'm losing the battle on losing weight. I KNOW how to take it off and I KNOW how to keep up; I just don't have the motivation to do it. It's really sad. I wish that I weighed 125. When I weighed 125, that wasn't good enough. I wanted to weigh 108. Never satisfied and now I'm a hundred pounds from my goal weight. Maybe I should have the lap band surgery. I think that I'm a good candidate for it.

Note: Most fruit is negative calories.

Hellarockstar!

i know theres a pain

i'vhad them for the last three days

stay strong

much love Amanda xxx

lol yes they are.

DIzzy

God I know

Its gonna be impossible!

But ill try

Ill be doing loads of exercise too

So hopefully everything will work out

And well done on nearly burning your house down

My friend left her straighteners on one day and panicked the whole school day to find out that her mum had turned them off bless her

Glad its alright though

xxx

Ahhh that sucks

And your not the only one, I always black out while im binging

The only reason I ever know what ive eating is because I pick everything out well before I start

Stupid binges

Grrr

anyways, hope you go gain xxxxx

aww i wish there was a storm in my town

good luck with your weight loss huni

stay strong

much love Amanda xxx

okay howwwwww did you lose 7 lbs in 4 days? like, tell me exactly how!

i need to lose bad.

aww huni

im sorry to hear about your binge and your lack of a workout

but your weight loss is such a great achievement

you should be proud of yourself

much love Amanda xxx

wow!!!

awesome huni youv done soo well

you should be so proud of yourself

much love Amanda xxx

aww thanks.

i'll make sure i do that next time.

thanks...

i lost roughly 7 pounds.

i wish i wouldn't  have messed that up.

[amlentz]

yh i know what you mean

but what do you mean you feel bad about it?

much love Amanda xxx

Ya know what? I don't eat that MANY calories and yet I still can't lose weight. Yeah, and I know that Steak and Shake ain't helping any either. I don't think that it's the calories that are keeping me fat. It's those damn oversized portions I eat once a day. If I could eat smaller meals more times a day, I bet I could lose this weight.

huni i know how you feel

just start again next week and im sure Ana will come back

stay strong huni

much love Amanda xxx

WOW!how did you burn so much?!

anyways thankyou for empathizin'